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As the year comes to an end, I'm struggling mentally. I'm sitting in my beautiful home with my beautiful family looking at our beautifully decorated tree with tear-stained cheeks. It all started 2 weeks when I fell in my home and broke my ankle. I had to have surgery to fix the damage and I have to home resting ever since.  Although my body is resting my mind is struggling, I feel depression trying to creep in and I don't like it at all.  Christmas is in 2 days I can not visit family or even go to a movie because my surgery was 3 days ago. As I sat here thinking about my husband and child going to visit family I began to get very sad. I became very away of how empty and lonely my house will be. It Hurt. My husband said to me they don't have to go out but, he has family coming from out of town that I know he wants to see. It would be nice if they come to our home but that won't happen. the family chooses a location to all meetup and its about an hour away from here. ...

Hello Friends ( WAVES) Today I had a thought and it was so very clear and strong, it was even passionate in a sense. My life has been in the mist of what seems to be one of its toughest transitions. Now I've probably been through tougher but usually when your in an active battle or change it appears to be the toughest that you have ever been through! Resistance to the change seems to be a natural reaction even if it's good for you. It is hard to kind of comprehend the shift because it seems so unnatural like putting on a shoe that is brand new and kind of tight you need to stretch it out a bit. In this transition that I am going through, I didn't realize what was being stolen from me. See I began to shut down and become silent in hopes to figure out what is going on and why it was so hard to make the change. To be honest I didn't understand how to make the shift of even if I should.  Was what was being present something I should consider, or was it something tha...

 Motherhood is one of the Biggest and best blessings that I am so fortunate to have been blessed with. Ive waited so many years to be graced by such a gift and when it finally happened I was overjoyed. If you have been following me a while you know my struggle with pregnancy and how after a certain age I felt as if I couldn't  get pregnant at all. So when I heard the heart of my baby love come across the speakers during a ultra sound tears ran down my cheeks and met at my chin. I had a fairly decent pregnancy didn't have any morning sickness and didn't gain much weight. Never had a lot of the symptoms of craving that I had heard about or the swelling in my feet that a lot of woman get. I felt Blessed for sure!!  Little did I know it was the quiet before my personal storm.  I am going too be super transparent as always, in hopes that I am helping someone like myself who had no idea the sorts of things  that can happen when bringing a baby into the world. I titl...

Since the last time I've posted so much has changed in my life.  The business of my new life has kept me from posting but I have returned with plenty to say. As I told you all in my last post I was expecting a baby girl and by the grace of God she is here Healthy and Happy. My baby has changed mines and my husbands entire world. I am truly]= grateful for her and that God decided to bless me to be a mother. My Baby is a promise from God.  Have you ever prayed to God for something continually and over time you kind of let that prayer kind of sit in the back of your mind. You haven't completely given up on it but, your kind of in between. You want to have hope and not doubt God but afraid to be hopeful just in case it never happens. Then eventually you kind of forget about the prayer you put in the atmophere and go forward with life. Your only sometimes reminded when the thing you want is present, seeing a friend or love one get what you wanted , a commercial on tv, or maybe an ...

Hello Beautiful People!!  I hope All is well with you. Life has been super busy for me preparing for my little bundle of joy and just adjusting to life as a whole. Its been quite the ride, Ive had to let some folks off the train and Ive pick up new passengers. Im super excited about the future no matter how many obstacles I had to climb to get here. Conquering life obstacles is what makes you Happy times even more special. Ive learn how to give my self permission to be happy, to let go and to let God and its absolutely wonderful. I hope you enjoy my brief insight on life and the importance of living for today. Here Goes :)  As we Live & grow there are tons of things we must leave behind........  I saw a photo of an old friend today and immediately I remembered the good times we used to have. I remembered how during those times we were close friends that it felt life would always be that way. I instantly missed my old friend and I smiled. Life’s circumstance...

Hello Everyone !!! (wave) Happy 2018 !!! It has been a roller coaster year for me (2017) but I am truly excited for what this new Year is bringing .  If you have been following me for a little while you know in 2015-2016 I went through some major trials and tribulations. Since then I have been fighting not to get back to me but to get to the me that I am now. What Ive realized in life is as a person, you have to constantly be learning or you won't be growing. I with out a shadow of a doubt am ready to Grown and Shine brighter than ever before. I hope the same for all of you ! As with anything willing to have there is always going to be a fight, I will say with confidence Im not a punk and my gloves are on. I want All God has for me, and I believe him and his promises he has made for my life. So let me fast forward a little bit and catch you up since my long absence. I have remarried (Big Cheese)  to one of the most wonderful human beings I have ever met. We have been frien...