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It Tried to Steal My Voice !



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Today I had a thought and it was so very clear and strong, it was even passionate in a sense. My life has been in the mist of what seems to be one of its toughest transitions. Now I've probably been through tougher but usually when your in an active battle or change it appears to be the toughest that you have ever been through! Resistance to the change seems to be a natural reaction even if it's good for you. It is hard to kind of comprehend the shift because it seems so unnatural like putting on a shoe that is brand new and kind of tight you need to stretch it out a bit.

In this transition that I am going through, I didn't realize what was being stolen from me. See I began to shut down and become silent in hopes to figure out what is going on and why it was so hard to make the change. To be honest I didn't understand how to make the shift of even if I should.  Was what was being present something I should consider, or was it something that would change me in a way where I am less like myself.

I have so many questions and so many conclusions, I have made so many scennarios in my head on what I should and could do. How should I receive this? Should I receive this? Will this be good for me ? Silently asking all these question in my mind and the more questions I have the more silent I become the more pressure I feel the more overwhelmed I become. More silence ....

It literally dawned on me as I drove myself to get coffee one Sunday morning and began to sing one of my favorite gospels songs. As I sung I heard myself and it seemed like the first time in a very long time. There was a feeling of joy that came over me the more I sung, I can say it was the song but I can also say that it was the realization of the meaning of the words coming out of my mouth. The sound I was hearing from myself.

I was singing about victory, joy, prosperity I was singing about freedom I was singing about Jesus! I then realized the damage of my silence. I had let my situation take away my positive outlook on life , I had allowed my silence to drown out the knowledge that I knew. The silence had become so loud that I had stopped praying.  Stopped believing that I was and am Victorious. I had forgotten that my words had power.

Friends if you don't get anything out of this please know you words have power. Don't allow anyone, situation or thing to silence you. Speak life into you self, your family, you're circumstances daily. Know that you are important and your words need to be heard. We all have our views and understanding about life which makes us all wonderful and individually who we are. Be careful not to silence others because they don't have the same views as you. I in no way support negativity that come along with freedom of speech as well unfortunately. We can all do our best to be good people respect and be the person the others you want them to be to you ( hopefully that's a good person) .

Now that I have heard my voice again and I am regaining the strength that God has given me. Im able to see clearly and walk through my trasition knowing I won't have all the answers. I am able to still walk through it by faith and know that no matter what I am going to be okay as long as I use my voice speak the truth and encourage myself to continue on.

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