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Depression does not discriminate

As the year comes to an end, I'm struggling mentally. I'm sitting in my beautiful home with my beautiful family looking at our beautifully decorated tree with tear-stained cheeks. It all started 2 weeks when I fell in my home and broke my ankle. I had to have surgery to fix the damage and I have to home resting ever since.  Although my body is resting my mind is struggling, I feel depression trying to creep in and I don't like it at all.  Christmas is in 2 days I can not visit family or even go to a movie because my surgery was 3 days ago. As I sat here thinking about my husband and child going to visit family I began to get very sad. I became very away of how empty and lonely my house will be. It Hurt. My husband said to me they don't have to go out but, he has family coming from out of town that I know he wants to see. It would be nice if they come to our home but that won't happen. the family chooses a location to all meetup and its about an hour away from here.

Its been a rough few months for me generally emotionally and now physically. My father suffered a small stroke, a week after his brother is admitted to the hospital to find out he has pancreatic cancer. Now a broke ankle and isolation, a part of me feels defeated, apart of feels alone and apart of me feels things will be ok somehow.  Me speaking with you guys is helping me so very much, it therapeutic. When I speak sometimes I get so emotional, and I feel very misunderstood.

I have been fighting for the last few days to not allow my depression /anxiety get the best of me. The last time I felt sort of like this was after my daughter was born and it was the scariest thing I've ever gone through. I wasn't able to eat of sleep for 2 weeks, I cried all day every day. People didn't understand and comforted me the best way they knew how. I felt awful inside.

Today I refuse to let depression win! If I have to write a novel to keep myself together I will. I'm
also going to reach out to my therapist in the am I think i need a tune-up.


Thanks for listening guys until next time.


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