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Falling can be one missed step away ...... part 2

The word Empty is a small word but it holds much power. Too be empty is too not be full ... Empty also can mean to be filled with. Opening my eyes doesn't seem to feel the same anymore, the dread of the unknown almost makes me want to stay asleep. I never thought that I could ever be this low. I never thought the the insecurity and the feeling of never fitting in would creep up on me in my adult life. You see things in life that are meant to bring you down will tap on you discreetly almost subliminally. They continue to hit you in the same spot over and over again, just like a construction worker who needs to break down a wall. The construction worker will target the weakest point to gain access, and begin there demolition focused on that point. So here I am empty, like a car that has run out of gas (which ironically enough recently happened too me lol ugh ). If you have ever ran out of gas you know that the vehicle is at its low point and is unable to function. It has pulled o...

Falling can be one missed step away ... Part 1

As always I come to you from my own personal experience in hopes that I am sharing relevant information that will uplift motivate or at least make you think. In this season of my life I'm learning the importance of being transparent. As much as I want my post to bless you, Im also gaining because I am blessed as well. The more I share the more I am healed the recovery process begins when I took the steps to be vulnerable. The internal wounds covered up by my 9-5 cookie cutter, keep your head up game face are now able to be stitched.  So it begins for me another chapter, how I got here is what I am about to share with you..... A successful woman in her mid 30's looks to have everything, family , friends, car of her own, apartment, not to bad looking (lol) and a few degrees under her belt. No children newly married and a career that can lead to many opportunities. The best part is the strong relationship I have built with God, finally accepting who I am and who's I am.  ...

Single,Saved, Unsure

The topic of being single is pretty taboo in this day an age. There are dedicated groups and organizations that represents the single community. There's a whole movement going on for the single world. Although there a wealth of information out there about singleness, dating and living a life for Christ. Who is talking about the combination of the 3 from there personal experience? When I was single and developing in my Christian walk I was such a struggle for me to go too someone about dating because you pretty much always got the same answer. No sex before marriage, no living together, he must be a believer, and the list goes on but I needed more. Exactly how do I do this when I was never really taught a out dating in the first place? I remember going to a singles seminar at a church and the set up was a panel of experienced believers who would answer anonymous questions  written and put into a box. I was super excited about this I felt my question would finally be answered. Well ....

Only you can take off the Cape

Through out my life there's been many things that I have questioned. There are many things I did not understand or wish I could change. Many of those same things after time I got through. It was then I understood an my whys were answered. Unbeknown to myself my circumstances and environment had effected who I had become. For the most part we believe we are who we are and that's it. We never really take the time too think of what we are really made of what made us who we are. Last week I talked about stress and how it can effect your life physically,mentally and spiritually. This week I want to talk about the why and how stress was able to have such power in my life. I can only talk about me personally let's face it, who better knows me than me Right ?!  Here goes, some how during the course of my crazy but wonderful life I ended up wearing a Cape. Yes a Cape like the ones super heroes wear only mines was invisible! Every time trouble arrived or something needed to be solved...

A decision too make !

As people we all have a person places or things that can take us to a place that's not so nice. Im talking about things that get on your nerves just ruin your day. Those things that make you want to stay in bed all day, or not answer your phone. My list can go on for days about those "things" that bug your nerves! To add insult to injury these issues get you all upset then stress you out! Which then leads too all sorts of other issues. I'm going to let you in on a little secret that you may not know or maybe you do. Stress is a silent killer ! Now I use the term killer loosely no one is dying physically. Stress does effect your health pysically,mentally and worst of all spiritually. You feel sick tired emotionally drain,then you can get to a point where you don't want to pray. A have always been a person who couldn't sit still, had multiple projects going at one time. If and when a problem arouse I would handle it no problem. Well at least that's how I mad...

Walking in the Rain

Today I decided to take a walk during my lunch break. As I stepped outside I saw the sky was grey, but it felt warm and pleasant so I put the thought of possible rain out of my mind. Half way through my journey I felt a drop then another, so now I'm faced with a decision! Should I turn back around or should I go forward? I decided to continue my walk and go pick up lunch. Picked up lunch walked back out side the drops were falling a little harder and faster now so I pick up my pace. Half way back to work still walking in this rain there was a peace and calm that came over me. I slowed my pace and enjoyed the sound and the smell of this rain. It wasn't pouring it was just enough rain to quiet things down outside. About 1 hour after my lunch break the sun had come out. The thought came to me of rain and how people look at rain and storms as a bad thing. Just like everything else in this life they serve a purpose. The rain may make you feel uncomfortable, may make you want to run ...

She Lives

Good Morning all, Please don't let the title fool you this post is not directed towards a femenin Audiance. I believe everyone can learn something from others story gender, age , race, or religion. We all have one life that we are living and we all have a story too tell. Like I've said a few times before your story holds the key too someone's victory!  Have you ever gone through a very tough time in your life, but this specific tough time seems to repeat it self, the next time you go through it you remember I've been here and I don't like how this feels?  A transparent moment for me was I went through this dejavu moment and it felt horrible and it hurt, and it stirred me on the inside then I realized.... What ( I ) was doing wrong! It's was like an invisible blinder had been snatched off of my eyes. I had to stare my truth right in the face and admit that I was wrong! In that  moment I be came alive! Really really alive! She Lives!! The act of denial is so...

Reasons

All things happen for a reason Right? This phrase is used often, and often used in the case when a situation is unexplainable. When a circumstance is clearly out of our control. When a bit of faith has kicked in and we say to our inner self, "what's going to happen will happen but I /we will be ok".   There's a scripture in Romans 8:28 Kjv that says all things work together for those who love God and are called according to his purpose. This passage is used often but I find not fully understood. First let me say we are all called according to his purpose, every person on the planet was born on purpose for a purpose! Also when is say all things work together or the phase everything happens for a reason that includes EVERYTHING! Good moments bad moments, ugly moments. Every season in our lives has a purpose, what I find today is that we don't believe unless we are in a good season.  If we truly believed all things worked together for our good, we would be so much ha...