Through out my life there's been many things that I have questioned. There are many things I did not understand or wish I could change. Many of those same things after time I got through. It was then I understood an my whys were answered. Unbeknown to myself my circumstances and environment had effected who I had become. For the most part we believe we are who we are and that's it. We never really take the time too think of what we are really made of what made us who we are. Last week I talked about stress and how it can effect your life physically,mentally and spiritually. This week I want to talk about the why and how stress was able to have such power in my life. I can only talk about me personally let's face it, who better knows me than me Right ?! Here goes, some how during the course of my crazy but wonderful life I ended up wearing a Cape. Yes a Cape like the ones super heroes wear only mines was invisible! Every time trouble arrived or something needed to be solved the silent trumpets would sound and it's off too the rescue! I would be so eager to respond to a call I seldom left opportunity for someone else to try ! I was enabling !!! (Shocked face) and didn't even realize it. Me an enabler I'm a teacher I live by the code of teach a man too fish ! Well Mrs Super C was doing this and doing that saving this person helping with that, and then wonder why people would alway call on me for everything (rolling eyes). I had trained them too ! I took away there chance to learn while taking away my freedom to work on what I needed done. Here's the kicker ...it came too the point where I would get irritated when others would ask me for help constantly. (some nerve huh? )I would think too myself nothing would get done if I didn't do it . Why didn't people get stuff done like I did? I got tired but didn't know I had fault in it all. Finally I was at a point in life where I had rushed made multiple bad decisions and my personal life was being effected tremendously. I needed help but couldn't even help myself. I mean from friendships to finaces I was struggling. It was hard for me too bare because usually I got what I wanted when I wanted even if it wasn't for me it happen somehow . One day I was confronted with my super hero tendencies. Now I could see my Cape and I didn't want to wear it anymore. My cape caused me to make bad rushed decisions my cape caused me to be in lack. My cape cause me to cheat others out of growth opportunities. Ironically I had power my power was to lay down the cape and get out of the way. Learn to wait and to be prayerful. Wait too see from every angle. The bible says be slow to hear and quick too teach. I took off my cape, opened my eyes, and said to my self sit down somewhere.! See I don't have too be a super hero when I have a Savior who had things all under control. It's in His timing that things happen. Do you wear a Cape ? And if so do u know u have the power to put it down ? Be careful not to rob yourself and others of the given task meant to push future victories!
The word Empty is a small word but it holds much power. Too be empty is too not be full ... Empty also can mean to be filled with. Opening my eyes doesn't seem to feel the same anymore, the dread of the unknown almost makes me want to stay asleep. I never thought that I could ever be this low. I never thought the the insecurity and the feeling of never fitting in would creep up on me in my adult life. You see things in life that are meant to bring you down will tap on you discreetly almost subliminally. They continue to hit you in the same spot over and over again, just like a construction worker who needs to break down a wall. The construction worker will target the weakest point to gain access, and begin there demolition focused on that point. So here I am empty, like a car that has run out of gas (which ironically enough recently happened too me lol ugh ). If you have ever ran out of gas you know that the vehicle is at its low point and is unable to function. It has pulled o...
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