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A decision too make !

As people we all have a person places or things that can take us to a place that's not so nice. Im talking about things that get on your nerves just ruin your day. Those things that make you want to stay in bed all day, or not answer your phone. My list can go on for days about those "things" that bug your nerves! To add insult to injury these issues get you all upset then stress you out! Which then leads too all sorts of other issues. I'm going to let you in on a little secret that you may not know or maybe you do. Stress is a silent killer ! Now I use the term killer loosely no one is dying physically. Stress does effect your health pysically,mentally and worst of all spiritually. You feel sick tired emotionally drain,then you can get to a point where you don't want to pray. A have always been a person who couldn't sit still, had multiple projects going at one time. If and when a problem arouse I would handle it no problem. Well at least that's how I made it look " no problem". For years I took on the baggage and the burdens of many often not letting them know that I was overwhelmed, tired and just needing a helping hand myself. Well that all came to a screeching halt once I begin to have panic attacks. Now I had no idea what a panic attack was but I didn't like it at all. It was possibly the scariest thing I had ever experienced. I went to the doctors and found out what was going on started to take care of myself for a little while but then...Fell back into the same pattern again I had cut back on the list of projects and the people that was good enough right I'm wrong ! I wasn't taking care of my temple, and the building begin to crack.  Other medical issues arouse thank God nothing terminal but at my age I shouldn't even have a preview yet. Now I'm sitting crying why is this happening too me ? I'm a good person ? I help people? I'm kind of healthy for the most part. I pray well lately not as much as I should (just being honest) I remembered something I've said to other people a million times but never applied too my self (why do we do that ? ) If you continue down this path you won't be around to take care of anyone be a good friend too yourself. This time I got the memo and I was not going down with out a fight. I got back on track with taking care of me. You know it wasn't long before I was tempted and that's when I made the decision! That day I had received a phone call and that phone call was not good new at all, it was the type of news that will have you all fired up and ruin your day! I decided in that moment  I refused to allow my self another moment of unhappiness over something I do to have the power too change. I lifted the situation up too God and I went on with my day. That day was the best day I had had in a long while and each day after that I decided too declare that day another day of joy peace and good health. Today I'm feeling my best and happy to be aware that we as people have a choice. I decided to be happy! I'm leaving all the heavy lifting to My creator his peer far exceeds my own! 

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