Good Morning all,
Please don't let the title fool you this post is not directed towards a femenin Audiance. I believe everyone can learn something from others story gender, age , race, or religion. We all have one life that we are living and we all have a story too tell. Like I've said a few times before your story holds the key too someone's victory!
I had to admit that I was completely wrong with out adding a justification. If walls could talk ... You would of thought I was loosing it for a moment. I literally struggled to just say straight out I was wrong. Millions of thoughts of reasons why I said what I said or did what I did popped in my head wanting to make its way out of my mouth. That was the way I had always done it and we usually stick to what we know Right? It's comfortable we know how to respond we know the out come.but I couldn't carry this on anymore I didn't want the same out come because it was good. I didn't want to repeat it one more time cause this time maybe the end I may not get another chance to fix it. She Lives ! To be able to live your life in peace, in joy, in truth you have to be able to be 100% honest with yourself your flaws and all.
There yours and nobody can take them away from you or deal with them but you! You can discuss it with friends family whom ever but until you face it and change it, your it remains. The moment I faced myself my biggest critic my biggest influence I felt like I had taken a fresh breath of air. I felt like heaviness, hurt, fear, and confusion had finally moved out of my guest room. They been there too long paying no rent !!! Isn't that the worst you have a person who has so much to say but doesn't help with anything. Oh no you gotta go! As I write to you all I am freeing any residue that may have tried to hang around. Every single piece of luggage must go! Not tomorrow but right now! Me sharing is helping me to take accountability. I no longer am interested in living in denial or defeat. I want to live my best life ever! That life begins now ! I let old patterns, strongholds and comfort of affliction go it's the past and is not welcome to come back! I regret not listening to the voices that told me my truth, feeling like they didn't understand or didn't really know what they were taking about. Feeling like how are they going to tell me something when they need to fix this that and that too! That's not really my place or my buisness now is it ? (Had to shade myself right quick). I hope my truth is helpful to someone. I asked that before you think of the person that really need to read this (please share I do encourage you too share) examine yourself first. We can't try to heal others walking around with our own internal wounds. Why not now ?? Why not you?? In this life we only get one change at it make it as amazing as possible it starts with being free. Be blessed be free be great ! Be the best you that you can possibly be! Breath ! She Lives ! ❤️
Please don't let the title fool you this post is not directed towards a femenin Audiance. I believe everyone can learn something from others story gender, age , race, or religion. We all have one life that we are living and we all have a story too tell. Like I've said a few times before your story holds the key too someone's victory!
Have you ever gone through a very tough time in your life, but this specific tough time seems to repeat it self, the next time you go through it you remember I've been here and I don't like how this feels?
A transparent moment for me was I went through this dejavu moment and it felt horrible and it hurt, and it stirred me on the inside then I realized.... What ( I ) was doing wrong! It's was like an invisible blinder had been snatched off of my eyes. I had to stare my truth right in the face and admit that I was wrong! In that moment I be came alive! Really really alive! She Lives!! The act of denial is something that keeps you from truly living and in the moment with a tear stained face, I couldn't cry anymore the answer was so very clear.
The answer had been there all along but I had been too blind to see it. I had been blaming the situation, I had been blaming others I had been making excuses for my behavior and felt justified. What I was able to understand was as long as this pattern kept repeating it self I kept going in the same circle, things kept being tucked away or swept under a rug waiting too come back up again. The best analogy I can think of is when you get cut and a scab grows over the cut you pick the scab and then what happens, another scab grows right back. Now the cut is not heeling as fast or as properly as it could and now you risk scarring and a possible ugly scar at that !
A transparent moment for me was I went through this dejavu moment and it felt horrible and it hurt, and it stirred me on the inside then I realized.... What ( I ) was doing wrong! It's was like an invisible blinder had been snatched off of my eyes. I had to stare my truth right in the face and admit that I was wrong! In that moment I be came alive! Really really alive! She Lives!! The act of denial is something that keeps you from truly living and in the moment with a tear stained face, I couldn't cry anymore the answer was so very clear.
The answer had been there all along but I had been too blind to see it. I had been blaming the situation, I had been blaming others I had been making excuses for my behavior and felt justified. What I was able to understand was as long as this pattern kept repeating it self I kept going in the same circle, things kept being tucked away or swept under a rug waiting too come back up again. The best analogy I can think of is when you get cut and a scab grows over the cut you pick the scab and then what happens, another scab grows right back. Now the cut is not heeling as fast or as properly as it could and now you risk scarring and a possible ugly scar at that !
I had to admit that I was completely wrong with out adding a justification. If walls could talk ... You would of thought I was loosing it for a moment. I literally struggled to just say straight out I was wrong. Millions of thoughts of reasons why I said what I said or did what I did popped in my head wanting to make its way out of my mouth. That was the way I had always done it and we usually stick to what we know Right? It's comfortable we know how to respond we know the out come.but I couldn't carry this on anymore I didn't want the same out come because it was good. I didn't want to repeat it one more time cause this time maybe the end I may not get another chance to fix it. She Lives ! To be able to live your life in peace, in joy, in truth you have to be able to be 100% honest with yourself your flaws and all.
There yours and nobody can take them away from you or deal with them but you! You can discuss it with friends family whom ever but until you face it and change it, your it remains. The moment I faced myself my biggest critic my biggest influence I felt like I had taken a fresh breath of air. I felt like heaviness, hurt, fear, and confusion had finally moved out of my guest room. They been there too long paying no rent !!! Isn't that the worst you have a person who has so much to say but doesn't help with anything. Oh no you gotta go! As I write to you all I am freeing any residue that may have tried to hang around. Every single piece of luggage must go! Not tomorrow but right now! Me sharing is helping me to take accountability. I no longer am interested in living in denial or defeat. I want to live my best life ever! That life begins now ! I let old patterns, strongholds and comfort of affliction go it's the past and is not welcome to come back! I regret not listening to the voices that told me my truth, feeling like they didn't understand or didn't really know what they were taking about. Feeling like how are they going to tell me something when they need to fix this that and that too! That's not really my place or my buisness now is it ? (Had to shade myself right quick). I hope my truth is helpful to someone. I asked that before you think of the person that really need to read this (please share I do encourage you too share) examine yourself first. We can't try to heal others walking around with our own internal wounds. Why not now ?? Why not you?? In this life we only get one change at it make it as amazing as possible it starts with being free. Be blessed be free be great ! Be the best you that you can possibly be! Breath ! She Lives ! ❤️
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