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Heeeey Guys ! Here's another one straight from the brain, I hope you don't mind but I've been doing some emotional spring cleaning. So these writing may seem confusing or enlightening  i guess it depends on the reader huh. The one thing they are .. are my truth SO here goes hope you enjoy! Please Share , Comment 

Wounded,Broken, Confused .... the epitome of a walking time bomb ... owner of the detonator ... tick.... tick 
internally bleeding ... seeking reassurance ... 
not knowing how to explain, standing up for whats right whats real, feeling  numb, displaced , erased .... past and present self dissolved ... blown away like dust in the air ....  
shifted uprooted from a foundation of false hopes and promises ... sinking sand ... floating through a time portal unsure how to settle... how to land... my canvas blank, writers block ..... pen in hand thinking .... free to write the beginning  ....again ... but how ? 
The echo of past bad choices ringing in your inner ear ... the fear of chosen steps unseen outcomes ... freedom?  Hmmm ... Still unsure the score 0 to none ... Have I won ? Will the smoke ever clear ... shots fired !! Was I Hit? can I Recover?  
Resilience .... situated in such a way to walk strong ... above opinion , society, the chains that bind ... preplanned slavery a shell of an existence Not me ... detonated ! Gone !  
Resurrection of purpose ... Rise ! Rose! Risen ! Resuscitate mouth 2 mouth  spitting up toxins, release ... breath ! Oxygen Air .... Free ! blood flow returning to brain , heart, fingers toes ... empowered  Soul ... Finished ? 
Na No never ... how cleaver ... you thought!  I was broken enough to be dragged to the slow death you called love loyalty ... matrimony ... I Rise ... dusting off blacken residue like chimney soot betrayal, lies, deception , abuse! 
I choose ME! 
You should of took me out when you had the chance !! ... I stand with Audacity and tenacity and Determination and Dare you ... to try me... 
Displacement to Discovery to Victory ... I won't loose ... 
a sinister smirk across my face ... eyes slanted mad shade ... shots fired but shooting blanks  ... no flinching
 But seriously sir thanks... for the trip...
 back to me ... 
Best thing you ever did was  betray me like Judas ... a legendary first kiss that will forever be referenced , an epic event that changed the entire course of man kind ... and I  ... I don't mind....
following in my fathers foots steps ... he saved me molded and shaped me . 
By default I'm a winner ! 
Sincerely,
& Ex sinner 

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