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Hello Fellow readers and Friends ! Its been quite some time since I've written anything, even in my person journal, shame on me... Tonight I'm feeling inspired and am tired of slacking so.... i decided to write something off the top of my head, which is i.e. the reason behind my title so here we Go.



Hopeless, empty, confused almost hollow inside

I lay prostrate on the ground no sound nor  light  can encourage me to move
Tear stained face, bruised and batter heart

I start ...
too get up but can't

Not a hand in sight to lift me
But what  I can see
is
Like clouds in the sky that provide Shade covering me
The many comments, judgments and gossip like comic strip bubbles floating above me

Those are the ones that said they love me ....
Why arent they praying for me ?
Or even trying to come Help me ...

Each word like a brick some as Big as boulders
BOOM! knocked down
Suffocated
 In a position where I'm less than super hero status
Embarrassed
demoted to the status of a VH1 house wife ...
My story is the gossip that keep them from facing there own truths

I watch as they smile in my face
But the WRITING is on the wall
You See the bible say we all fall
Short
 but Ah His Glory

They conveniently forgot that verse ....
I curse the day I accepted the Lie

A sweet lullaby written by the Co author which is me
Never stopping to see
The obvious signs
Phone calls , Dinners,  and talks with true love ones who confronted me with truth

My crown Now twisted
A few Jewels Missing
Called Virtue
Feeling stripped of the birth right of Royalty
My Father Called me A Queen
I was born HIS

Now my reflection causes me agony
antagonizing The Power he place securely in me
Now Im  feeling stripped, whipped and left to die
A Black Eye called deception

Lost in a world that is oh so familiar
But now
A mere illusion of the day dream I've lived in since this hell began
I remember
Sitting staring into the sky, repeated asking when
Then I decide
subconsciously
to take hold of the Heavenly Authors PEN
Then it was history
I had edited a perfectly written master piece

Back to current reality,

My mind so stripped no longer able to see Victory , Destiny, or even Sanity
Why Me ?
Why now ?
Why ?
dehydrated  not a tear left to cry
I hear the referee Slowly counting too ten
 1, 2, 3 ,4 ,5
Im Alive

my pulse began to quicken
The shell of my former self crashing to the ground crunblimg
I am now
 A new creation
An Evolved Species
one that has to adapt to the changes in his current habitat or surroundings

It is said that  pressure bust pipes, but it also make diamonds
There is too much in me too not BE

BE the beginning of the word beautiful, beloved
Because I'm His and HE is gentle man
He gave me a chance to take the wheel
Now He has Given me Grace, and Faith too
Walking away from broken pieces


Looking at the clouds which once contained guilt judgement and despair
I brushing them off as if there not even there
There are now clear, translucent,empty, no substance
those same word mean nothing

I am His
and He builds Warriors
He manifested a solider
In battle I may have taken a fall
Cut a bruise and punch and broke jaw

Thats the climax of the story
The part that Leaves you in suspense waiting for the next scene
and then the Sunshines

 Victory is always an option
I may make more mistakes
Trip, fall , and land on my face
But as long as i am HIS
Getting up is always the Case .....




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