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The Strength to Be Me!

For as long as I can remeber I have never fit in. I'm sure I share this feeling with a lot of people.  Being in a room full of people but still feeling alone. Having moments where you wonder why do I have to be the odd one out. Working hard to achieve goals and have your success look upon as if you did something wrong. Feeling ostracized because your doing well in your life. Sometimes feeling more comfortable around strangers than family and friends.Then finally thinking I'm darned if I do darned if I don't! Is it just me? You may be reading this like geez that's depressing and in those moments I felt that way too. So many questions why? Emotions up and down trying to figure out how to fit in but you just can't . Praise be on to the Lord ! Once my purpose was revealed to me I realized I wasn't  created to fit in. I was created for a purpose that not everyone can handle. I became proud to know that I didn't buckle under the pressure of having to be like those around me. Or having to live up to the standards that others set for me. I had passed the test or truly being a leader not a follower.i was the outside the box kind of girl.  So many things I left behind that I used too do, places I used to go. I no longer have the desire because purpose was calling my name. Now was it an easy task no ! It took the grace of God and the determination that I wasn't going back. I wanted more out of life, life needed more out of me. So I pushed through the awkward moments. Pushed back the tears when others ridiculed me for not being like them. Pushed until I won the battle a carried the strength to be Me!  Being me today is absolutely fabulous! It's a beautiful feeling when your comfortable in your own skin not living up to others expectations but setting the standards. The crazy part about the journey to get the strength to be me is that I didn't even know that I had found myself. It wasn't until I sat amongst a group of people who I had wanted so bad to except me. They never knew but I did and I was ok with the fact whether they accepted me or not. At the end of the day happiness is a choice! I choose happiness! I choose joy! I choose peace! I choose love! I choose success! And I choose Jesus! 
 Will you dare to be you even if it not what's popular? 

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  1. godsfavor32May 27, 2015 at 11:53 AM

    This is great! I know this all to well. I can say its a journey to say the least because its lonely when you don't fit in. My children are my comfort zone and I know that they love me regardless. But I do know that God has a plan just for me and I'm willing to go wherever he takes me. Thanks for the encouragement Sis.

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    1. Crystal McMichaelMay 27, 2015 at 1:43 PM

      I definitely relate to it being a lonely place! It also is a difficult place to explain to others. I'm glad to know there are others who share this with me!

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