I'm going to take a moment to be transparent. Once upon a time In my life i enjoyed gossip and would sometime even join in on it. ( now a lot of people do many won't admit it) At the time I found it harmless and sometimes entertaining it was all just jokes right ? Until one day I ended up on the other side of gossip now my life was the topic! I didn't even know why, what had I done. It literally had me questioning me self, looking over every action I take, second guessing myself. Then it hit me or should I say it was revealed to me. All the juciy "harmless" stories and jokes I had listened too those people probably felt the same way or worst. During that time when all eyes or should I say mouths felt like they were on me I felt lost. I felt hurt, violated, angry, disappointed and humiliated. Then I began to withdrawal not being sure who I can trust who I can now talk too. Boy was the enemy having a field day with me! The moral of my story or should I say confession, we all have a choice. Instead of choosing to talk or pass that juciy news you heard along try praying for the person. A wise person told me once that God allows us to know certain things so we know what to pray about. I myself never want to be put on the other side of gossip again. The saying you reap what you sow was made painfully clear. I Now a recovered gossiper ! If we all could Pray for one another what a better place this world would be.
The word Empty is a small word but it holds much power. Too be empty is too not be full ... Empty also can mean to be filled with. Opening my eyes doesn't seem to feel the same anymore, the dread of the unknown almost makes me want to stay asleep. I never thought that I could ever be this low. I never thought the the insecurity and the feeling of never fitting in would creep up on me in my adult life. You see things in life that are meant to bring you down will tap on you discreetly almost subliminally. They continue to hit you in the same spot over and over again, just like a construction worker who needs to break down a wall. The construction worker will target the weakest point to gain access, and begin there demolition focused on that point. So here I am empty, like a car that has run out of gas (which ironically enough recently happened too me lol ugh ). If you have ever ran out of gas you know that the vehicle is at its low point and is unable to function. It has pulled o...
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